Dont know what the title should be

So I decided I absolutely love this out of the box thing. I know I absolutely have a long ways to go but the little ways I have come feels pretty good. But I have realized being myself and having more confidence in myself is a hell of alot more fun. Now for the confidence thing I am not sure why but I can be confident but cant over come the nervous thing along with it. I took my written test today. I was confident that I would pass cause I studied a bunch and had an awesome study buddy, but for some reason I was still scared shitless and had the urge to vomit along with the shakes. I was shaking so bad I could barley type my password but I passed cause I knew I would. It feels so good to be done with the written.

WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!

So today I over came one of my most recent and biggest hurdles. One of the expectations for the IA class is to get 5 successful intubations. I have been to the OR 2 previous times before today and didnt do so well. But today I went with a good attitude and decided I could do it and guess what I did. I got all 5 in one day. This is a great accomplishment for me. I really struggled with this but I finally found my groove and I am finally comfortable with and so damn glad it is over for a little while anyways until I get to that part in the paramedic program. It should be a little easier the second time around. I hope anyways. And thanks to the one who gave me a little kick in the ass and said suck it up and get it done:) It is so much easier when you just do it!!!! Now it I just have to get the test done but I think I am ready. I hope anyways .

A New Challenge

Okay so I have a new challenge in life. I know everyone has taken on new challenge at least a few times in their life. Like losing weight, quiting that bad habit or being nicer. Well mine is a little out of the ordinary and actually a little weird I think. But it is going to be my biggest challenge yet and the hardest thing to overcome. My newest challenge is to come out of "my box" yes this is a challenge that some crazy chic gave me:)(love ya) So we will see how it goes so if you see me hiding in "my box" let me know so all of you can help me work on it. It is something I have been trying to overcome for years but now it is time to really get a hold of it and get past it. I am not exactly sure how I am going to do it but I AM GOING TO DO IT and I hope it wont take to long. Cause patience is not one of my strong points either.