Thankful Thursday

Well today I have to say I am thankful for everything. Ya I know I feel that good. But I will try to keep it short.
#1 Laughter I had a blast last night we laughed all night long and I have to say it is one of the best things in the world it makes me feel good to have fun and laugh with my buddies. That was to much fun even though it was at my expense most of the time it was great.
#2 My babies and yes this has been on all of my other posts but you have to realize at some points in my life they were all had or at least that is how I felt so even though they drive me nuts most of the time I love them so much.
#3 School yep I said it school. I have learned so much although right now it feels like my head is going to explode with all that I am taking in and I am not sure there is room for more information but I am thankful for the opportunity to learn. There is a lot that makes more sense and just makes sense to me period now so hopefully I can make room in my little pee brain to get it all in.
#4 I am thankful for a mom who helps me out with my kids. I wouldn't be able to do what I do without her. We definitely don't see eye to eye a lot of the time but I am thankful for her love and help.
#5 Friends yes Marty I said it again. Friends are what makes the world go around. Life would just totally suck without good friends to joke and laugh with or to have them there to listen. And friends who love you no matter what kind of mistakes you make or trouble you get into.
Well see I told ya I had a lot but I tried to keep it short. And no pictures today I know what a surprise cause that is all i usually do.

Just Wondering

So I was just thinking I know that is really scary and i will try not to hurt myself doing it! But have you ever wondered how it is possible to love someone so much meaning your kids and babies. It seems when I am having a bad day or just not feeling well all I have to do is play with my girls or go get my little guy and the world all seems to disappear and go away for a short time. I have my little guy right now and it is so awesome I love him so much and don't know why I just do. Now I know this is a retarded post but it is something I was just thinking about and wondering why is it that they make the world stop for a while.

Thankful Thursday

Since it is finally Thursday here it goes:

#1 Kids, my wild and crazy kids who keep me thinking and on my feet all the time gotta love them.They are teaching me alot of things, ( I think) Maybe patience haven't quite got it down yet but they are getting me there.

#2 Nature. Been going through the canyon a lot this last little while and it is starting to change colors it is my favorite thing. Looks like it is time to head up the mountain for a little get away to see all the pretty colors.

#3 For flowers we finally got more flowers and they are beautiful and the station looks a little better. Better then weeds or what look like weeds to me, not attractive at all especially compared to our Flowers.

#4 Friends, I am so thankful for friends who keep track of me there are times in life I would have been lost without them. For a good kick in the ass on occasion or just someone to listen is priceless and to know they are always there is the best thing.

Sleeping

One peaceful moment. Yep I caught the girls being nice to each other which is a very rare occasion. It is actually kind of cute they were hanging out together and fell asleep in Ashlees bed. This has to be one of my favorite pictures of them. I have been trying to get a good picture of them together I guess I just had to wait for the right time.

Some cute pictures

We got a bouncer for the baby and he loves it. He bounces and makes all those cute little noised they all make. The day we had him he bounced til he wore his self out. Sorry this one is all pictures. Maybe next time itwill be one I actually think and write about.





AHH sleeping baby nothing as awesome as that dont tell I picked him up to hold him while he slept I love to hold him when he sleeps.

Just an Update from the eventful weekend

I am glad to say not problems for the weekend. We anticipated that there would be, with knowing the girls father was coming to town. But after he was told by his grandma that he was not able to come to her house while the kids were there maybe he decided to not go there or start problems. I am not sure but he didn't bother the kids nor did he show up to his dads. I think that maybe he thought that I would give in as I used to with him. He must have realized I am not the same dumb girl I once was. I hope that he will decide to just stay away for the sake of the girls they have come a long way in 3 years of not seeing him and Ashlee has had time to heal and feel better about life it would be awful for her to have to deal with that all over again. And thanks to the most awesome friend a girl could have, who listened and talked me through it, it was one of the hardest times I have been through. I know that might sound silly but when you finally decide where life is going and what you want for kids to think it is all going to be interrupted with a big battle it is scary and definitely not fair to the kids. And thank god for Bill who will protect my kids at any cost it has to be a hard place to be.

Day of Dread

So today came the day I have dreaded for years or maybe was just hoping would never happen. The girls were with Bill today as usual and I get a call from him. Which is very unusual because he seems to be able to take care of them pretty well with out problems. He tells me he has a problem so I am thinking a kid with a broken arm or leg you know, so I am thinking no big deal right. WRONG we have a problem. He tells me that word is their father or sperm donor whatever you want to call him is headed to town and plans to make a suprise visit so we cant avoid him. Well thankfully the one who knew the "secret" cant keep one to save his life. Grandma Carol called him and told him he was not welcome to see the girls or come to the house while they are there, cause it was not what I wanted. He tried to lie to her and tell her I was in contempt if I didnt let him see them. But thankfully she is smarter then that. So the girls are home for the night and will hopfully be able to go back tomorrow. I am hoping that he doesnt show up here cause I am not sure what I will do. But so far no problems but it has me worried cause he may have made the trip for no other reason then to cause problems. Good thing I covered my butt with a nice court order I think he thinks I have let my gaurd down, Makayla wouldnt even know who he is and poor Ashlee was pretty stressed by the whole thing. Ok so I feel a little better it just makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with people. And how someone can hurt a child and not even feel like they have done something wrong and are going to jump back into their lives like nothing happened after waiting 3 years. I guess this is what happens when you make bad choices when you young and dumb!

Just dont get it!!!!!!

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for alot of things but here are a few. I am thankful for the chance to take the Paramedic class. I have to say I feel a bit better about it all and it has kind of been fun. Well until I have to go do clinicals and stuff and talk to new people but I decided that I am going to take it as it comes and try to enjoy learning more. I am thankful for awesome friends who are always there and can always count on for anything. Even when it is just to vent it means alot when you know they are there. And kids always thankful for them. Even when they are driving me crazy they are fun. Not much but enough for now.


Yep she's a spaz but she makes me laugh alot.