Some cute pictures

We got a bouncer for the baby and he loves it. He bounces and makes all those cute little noised they all make. The day we had him he bounced til he wore his self out. Sorry this one is all pictures. Maybe next time itwill be one I actually think and write about.





AHH sleeping baby nothing as awesome as that dont tell I picked him up to hold him while he slept I love to hold him when he sleeps.

Just an Update from the eventful weekend

I am glad to say not problems for the weekend. We anticipated that there would be, with knowing the girls father was coming to town. But after he was told by his grandma that he was not able to come to her house while the kids were there maybe he decided to not go there or start problems. I am not sure but he didn't bother the kids nor did he show up to his dads. I think that maybe he thought that I would give in as I used to with him. He must have realized I am not the same dumb girl I once was. I hope that he will decide to just stay away for the sake of the girls they have come a long way in 3 years of not seeing him and Ashlee has had time to heal and feel better about life it would be awful for her to have to deal with that all over again. And thanks to the most awesome friend a girl could have, who listened and talked me through it, it was one of the hardest times I have been through. I know that might sound silly but when you finally decide where life is going and what you want for kids to think it is all going to be interrupted with a big battle it is scary and definitely not fair to the kids. And thank god for Bill who will protect my kids at any cost it has to be a hard place to be.

Day of Dread

So today came the day I have dreaded for years or maybe was just hoping would never happen. The girls were with Bill today as usual and I get a call from him. Which is very unusual because he seems to be able to take care of them pretty well with out problems. He tells me he has a problem so I am thinking a kid with a broken arm or leg you know, so I am thinking no big deal right. WRONG we have a problem. He tells me that word is their father or sperm donor whatever you want to call him is headed to town and plans to make a suprise visit so we cant avoid him. Well thankfully the one who knew the "secret" cant keep one to save his life. Grandma Carol called him and told him he was not welcome to see the girls or come to the house while they are there, cause it was not what I wanted. He tried to lie to her and tell her I was in contempt if I didnt let him see them. But thankfully she is smarter then that. So the girls are home for the night and will hopfully be able to go back tomorrow. I am hoping that he doesnt show up here cause I am not sure what I will do. But so far no problems but it has me worried cause he may have made the trip for no other reason then to cause problems. Good thing I covered my butt with a nice court order I think he thinks I have let my gaurd down, Makayla wouldnt even know who he is and poor Ashlee was pretty stressed by the whole thing. Ok so I feel a little better it just makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with people. And how someone can hurt a child and not even feel like they have done something wrong and are going to jump back into their lives like nothing happened after waiting 3 years. I guess this is what happens when you make bad choices when you young and dumb!

Just dont get it!!!!!!

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for alot of things but here are a few. I am thankful for the chance to take the Paramedic class. I have to say I feel a bit better about it all and it has kind of been fun. Well until I have to go do clinicals and stuff and talk to new people but I decided that I am going to take it as it comes and try to enjoy learning more. I am thankful for awesome friends who are always there and can always count on for anything. Even when it is just to vent it means alot when you know they are there. And kids always thankful for them. Even when they are driving me crazy they are fun. Not much but enough for now.


Yep she's a spaz but she makes me laugh alot.